kay, so I didn't wanna do this one myspace and be a super creep. hahahaha. but I wanted to do it.



OKAY SO:
Girls - pick the SECOND guy on your top friends{no relatives)
Guys - do the same,but the second girl{no relatives)
- DON'T CHANGE IT!
- Enter their name
- Be HONEST!
- Repost this so your friends can do it too


What is the persons name?
joey!

Is this person your boyfriend/ girlfriend?
psh nah.

Does this person have a cell phone?
duh. red bberry.

If you were crying would this person cheer you UP?
he always does.

Where does this person live?
noblesvillefkingindiana. =[

Have you ever spent the night with this person?
nope.

Will this person repost this?
hahah not.

Do you trust this person?
I trust him more than most people I know.

If you could change something about this person would you?
he would live way closer. not 11 hours away.

How much does this person know about you?
a lot.

When will you next talk to this person?
tomorrow.

Does this person like you?
I would hope so. I've know this nig nog for like 6 years.

Do you tell this person your secrets?
Nothing is a secret, hahah, wellll.

Have you met this persons dad?
Nope. I would like to though, cause joey told me he was a poli sci major. I would probs love daddybaca. hahahah.

Does this person make you smile?
every single time I talk to him.

How much does this person mean to you?
A lot actually, as like gay as it sounds or whatever.
cause I can talk to him about anything. =]

I'm pretty positive I'm losing my mind.

Chris doesn't work with me anymore.
I'm absolutely crushed. I miss him so much, I saw him like 10 hours ago and I miss him so much. I don't care if he is practically married. I don't care if he sees me as a little sister or a friend. I don't know how I ever felt about him. I know I liked him but I don't know how to even take it. idk. idkidkdidk. whatever. it's making me kinda depressed thinking about this kid that I got to see a million times a week and who made me always smile, regardless of how pissed off I was about anything. We used to have sauce fights and my face and neck would break out like crazy cause it was too hot. All the times we compared musical tastes. All the times he tried to get me to listen to bob dylan, who I will never like. All the times he told me Norma Jean was nothing more than his dog, and not my favorite band of all time ever and he would only charge 16 dollars instead of the 20 I spent to see them. The only person I could go to work and after seeing him, not be sad that I was working a 12 hour shift.
whatever.
I guess shit happens and you have to grow up and get over it.
or, Let It Be,


speaking of.


Jacks Mannequin - The Mixed Tape
Senses Fail - Choke On This
Bayside - Devotion and Desire
Matchbook Romance - My Mannequin Can Dance
A Day To Remember - Your Way With Words Is Through
Senses Fail - Bite To Break The Skin
Bayside - Blame It On Bad Luck
Jacks Mannequin - Holiday From Real
The Spill Canvas - Polygraph, Right Now
Silverstein - Smile In Your Sleep
Fall Out Boy - XO
The Mars Volta - Wasting My Air
Norma Jean - Memphis Will Be Laid To Waste
Gym Class Heroes - Taxi Driver
Bayside - Duality
Reliant K - Who I Am Hates Who I've Been
The Sunstreak - Good Looks, Bad intentions
Fall Out Boy - Chicago Is So Two Years Ago
Taking Back Sunday - Liar, It Takes One To Know One
Halifax - Sydney
The Spill Canvas - All Over You
Fall Out Boy - My Heart Is The Worst Kind Of Weapon
The Beatles - Let It Be


all these songs, have at one point in time meant the absolute world to me.


and by the way.
the spill canvas makes me cry like crazy, and I hate it.
but I love it.

here is a random list of the things/people/objects I love. I feel like everyone should know.

chelsey.
my blackberry.
jackie.
oswego. and all of it's contents.
indiana jones.
chrisofur robin dunkin.
brokencyde.
cece.
lisa.
sam.
manda.
josh.
phil.
music.
cute boys.
a certain someone that constantly sings with and to me.
nikki.
my blonde hair.
staring at dean hah.
surprise visits.
clubbin'.
dancing.
my new jimi hendrix framed picture<3.
my corkboard of pictures.
playing the drums.
facebook.
no school on fridays.
tom wysocki.
norma jean. duh.
not talking to LOSERS anymore.
cute suny boys that request me<3.


AND MAD STUFF.


MRYTLE BEACH IN TWO WEEEEEEEKKKKKSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!
<3333333

Why is there not an lj blackberry app?! Do itttttt ljjjjj

Without any hesitation, you are helping my new narration, you are easily becoming my new sensation, giving me oh so much frustration, but with all this admiration it seems like your heart may be my new destination. There is no explanation for why I feel this way and I could care a less about having a revelation. This is something new, something that means it’s me and you. This party just dropped down to two. And there’s nothing left to do but further pursue. This heart has been way overdue and I think that you have the glue to fix these broken pieces. In my heart of hearts I know that this can all be true, I just wish I knew if this was my cue, or if the curtain has closed and my chance has been disposed.
Broken, burning, I am just learning how to cope with the things I have done to myself. I can tell by the look in your eyes that this love is like a sunset in the summer skies. So beautiful, so eloquent, this is something we will never forget. I could never let this go. Oh no.
My heart is pounding inside of my chest, every time I feel your warm breathe against my neck. This feeling you give me is nothing short of incredible. This time, boy, you’re slowly but surely stealing my heart, and there is no concealing it. You’re shaking me up and it’s so breathe taking. This time I’m falling hard for you, just like I did that night. I know that this is right, I know that this is worth the might. I’m lying here, anxiously awaiting the light from the morning sun to ignite and glimmer upon your gaze. Instantly in a haze, this love is a craze.
Broken, burning, I am just learning how to cope with the things I have done to myself. I can tell by the look in your eyes that this love is like a sunset in the summer skies. So beautiful, so eloquent, this is something we will never forget. I could never let this go. Oh no.

The life of a self professed fantastic girl

Today, I woke up and it was so friggin’ cold out. No, I wasn’t sleeping outside, but my window was open and now it feels like I swallowed nails or something. Whatever, I’ll get over it. I really need to take a shower, but, I’m so lazy that I just want to throw on some old clothes and put my hair up on top of my head. I won’t though, because today is different. Today, I’m going out with this boy. Yes, I’m like a pre teen when it comes to the male species. I really enjoy them, for the most part. Okay, so I suppose I’ll get in the shower now, but I have to turn my stereo on. Yes, I listen to music 24/7. I like everything from rap to rock and everything in between. Except country, it’s so depressing. Alright, I’ll listen to some N.E.R.D, it makes me really happy, and, one day, I’m going to marry Pharrell Williams. He’s gorgeous. Shit, why is the water always cold when I get in the shower? I hate that, more than most people would. So, I can take a 30 minute shower and still not feel clean, it’s a bit ridiculous, I’m a clean freak when it comes to personal hygiene. So, I finally get out of the shower. It’s nine in the am. What the hell does am stand for? I never knew, and I don’t think I ever will. Oh well. So, I have no idea how to dress or what to do with my hair. This damn trendy haircut that alexia made me get. Alexia is my best friend, I just call her Lex, so, get used to it. Anyway, I got my hair cut like Rihanna, pre chopping her hair off, ya know, that longer in the front jazz. I like it, but I have to straighten my hair every day now. Oh well. Anyway, I wonder what me and Cory are doing today. Oh, Cory is said boy I’m going out with today. He’s in a band. Yeah, I’m a sucker for guys in bands. He’s a writer like me too. It’s attractive to be with someone who’s like you, but so different. We’ve been friends for a while, but, I always liked him. I think he finally realized it. Which is freakin’ awesome. The band is pretty amazing too. Grand Scene would happen to be their name. I love them, they’re like, hardcore metal with actual lyrics. They’re a Christian band. I don’t care. I like them just the same. Jesus, way off topic.

Anyways, I have no idea what to wear. I straightened my hair though, there’s a start. Now, to understand my style, you may need the help of someone else who is just as strange as me. I like everything from pretty girly dresses to ripped jeans with a band tee and some slip ons. I’m a very versatile girl. Which is good for most people. I’ll never change who I am. Ah, finally. I’ll wear a nice pair of jeans and this black top, its low cut with gold stars. I think it’s cute and it says hey! Look at me, but not in a slutty way, which is a good thing, even though we already know each other. I don’t know, but there’s something about this guy that makes me feel fantastic. I think it’s that he is pretty sentimental and has a good head on his shoulders. I feel really secure around him. Which is definitely something I’ve never felt before. I’ve had bad experiences with musicians before, but Cory feels so different. I hope he is, he’s the greatest friend I’ve had in a while. I seriously hope this relationship doesn’t ruin it. I’d be so fucking sad.
It’s noon now, Cory just called, he just left his house, he’ll be here in a half hour. Yes, his house. What? You thought he was in some shitty garage band. So way. His band is actually well known and they tour a lot. And yes, I’m fine with that if this relationship lasts. So, between me and you, I want this to last, so I can have somebody I actually relate to. I’ve never felt this way about relating to a person before. I think I stated something like this to you already though.

Oh hey! My phone is ringing. It’s Cory! Damn, he sounds so hot on the phone. He’s got this deep voice. Omg. I almost can’t handle it. He’s like ten minutes out. Let me get some sneakers, preferably some Nikes. I love those fucking shoes. I have about 30 pairs. Yeah, I’m pathetic when it comes to shoes. I hear someone outside. Oh! It’s the man. How cheesy I am. I open the door as he walks up the pathway. He looks so damn good today. Let me describe him so you can drool a bit too. Cory is a modern day rebel. He doesn’t try but yet he always looks put together. Okay so, he’s about 5’7” – 5’8”. Not too short, not too tall. Good thing for me, cause I’m a shorty, only 5’1”. Oh, his clothes, sorry, for a moment, I was trying to take them off with my eyes. He’s wearing a turquoise tee shirt with some designs on it, loose, but fitting light colored jeans, and black and white Nikes with silver trim. And, his hair, it’s got this curly vibe to it, but, it’s shorter. It looks like hair I wouldn’t mind running my fingers through. And, this man, has the sexiest eyes ever. They change from a brown to a deep gray. Wow, am I the luckiest person alive right now or what.

He comes up to me, hugs me. We did that even before we considered dating. He’s so genuine. I love that. “Hey you, whats up? You’re looking good today!” he says. I reply coyly with
“nothing much, waiting for this really spectacular guy to come pick me up.”
How the fuck did I just spit that out, when I was afraid to talk to him for these past months. I’m such a weirdo.
“So, Bella, are you ready to go, cause I sure as hell know I am.”
My name is Gabriella. I’m very Italian. My name sure proves that. Do not call me Gabby. I hate that damn name. I don’t talk to everyone, I’m not a Gabby. I don’t gab it up.
“Cory, I wouldn’t be standing here if I wasn’t ready to go! Of course I am. The question is, are you ready?”
“Baby, I was born ready.”
Is it just me, or is he making you hot right now too. Jesus Christ I can’t wait until tonight.

We get in the car, he opens the door for me. Seriously, give me the ring now, I want this man. This man is a keeper. This is a nice car. It’s black, and, it looks expensive. Gees, stop saying I’m a gold digger. I know you are, I’m not though. I’m just wicked observant. Trust me, I’ve been with some bums, so this is new for me.
“Bella. Are you cold?”
“Nah, no. I’m fine. You?” Did I just ask this man if he was cold, in his own fucking car. I did. What an idiot.
“Uh, I’m good. I wasn’t expecting you to ask though.”
He probably thinks I’m an idiot.
“So, anyways, we’re going out to the beach. How does that sound?”
Well, fantastic. I love the beach. He must’ve read my myspace page.
“That sounds really fun Cory! Wow, it’s such a beautiful day isn’t it?”
“A beautiful day, a beautiful girl.”
Okay, I don’t want to be melted down like butter in the car. This early.
“Oh stop! I think you’re pretty, well, hot yourself. I’d call you beautiful, but that makes me think of guys with hair gel and manicures.”
“Well, it’s okay, call me what you want. Just minus the hair gel and manicures.”
Okay! I shall call him fucking hot. I shall call him the man of my dreams. I shall call him, perfect.

Clash
It started out as any typical day in life would, but, who knew that today would be the most groundbreaking day in the history in our world. Today all evils have joined forces to overcome the common good of this land. There has always been a bit of bad blood between your everyday commoner, and The Damaged. This day is going to be like nothing we could have ever imagined. This day will indefinitely go down in history as the biggest attack on commoners, and there’s only one person in the cartel of the commoners that has the strength, wisdom and courage to take on the challenge of defeating the damaged of this world. And, Menelaos, will overcome and conquer. His name alone means to withstand and to last. This alliance of The Damaged is nothing he cannot handle. He is the most feared warrior in all of this land. The Damaged that are around these parts only come out of hiding on occasion, but when they do, they make sure they don’t have a run in with Menelaos.
Today, the unspoken leader of The Damaged has come out to all of his cult like following and explained his plans in detail to take over this land and inhabit it with all his Damaged. This man alone is the most feared by everyone, Damaged and commoners equally. The Damaged are usually the common criminal, murderer, crazy, a captured commoner or anyone else that he can have his Damaged brainwash with his sense of terror and hatred toward the commoners. Honestly, I have no idea why he hates the commoners so much, at one time, he had to have been a commoner. Who knows, hopefully the secret will be told, someday. For now though, we have to venture on without knowing why there is so much hatred sprawled throughout our world from this man. Ator is his name. He’s the most horrific thing you’ll ever encounter in your life, no one has ever seen him, until now. Not even The Damaged had seen his, just the select few, who were his ring leaders. A man so secluded has caused so much havoc throughout our land. His most recent endeavor was trying to kill our King, lucky he didn’t succeed. All of that seclusion, he doesn’t even know who the king is, the man sent his Damaged after the wrong person. They killed a commoner. What pathetic fools.
Claennis is a very special place, it’s such a vast valley in which all the commoners of our world live, it’s covered in thick forests and only has one town, in which all commoners go for the markets and shops of their choice, although most commoners will live off of the land. For the commoners that do make the trip to town, some are relatively close, others, may have to venture over a hundred miles on foot, and in these forest, it is not safe unless the area has been established. There are many of The Damaged who just lurk the forest in hope of asserting terror upon the commoners. They also try to rob the commoners, and find out secrets of the King. They’ve never gotten one secret out of a commoner. Most commoners are completely useless and are just living their quaint little lives in Claennis.
Most commoners, not all, are quaint. There are some commoners that aren’t so common. This is where I come in. There is an elite group of commoners who are actually a direct representation of the King, against The Damaged, just in case something of this nature would happen, which, we all knew it would. Ator could not stay quiet much longer. Claennis just kept growing and growing, and Ator was losing ground in his battle for the land. This would also be where Menelaos happens to come into play with myself. Menelous is the leader of the elite commoners, which is referred to only as The Trychon. The Trychon was established many years ago, under the ruling of King Xelas, and has progressed with new members from time to time. This is nothing you can just join, this is not your average militia. This is a superior kind, these are not just commoners. These are people who if not in The Trychon, would most likely be in The Damaged. These people are intensely fierce, these are dangerous people, being used for the good of this world, to protect the commoners.
The Trychon are a superior breed of human beings, who are born with the utmost intensity and are ruthless. This can be shown as early as the age of two. This is the time the family is approached by the King himself, to ask if at the age of 16, the child can join The Trychon. Every single commoner says yes, because they are promised to be repaid for their great contribution to not only the King, but to Claennis.
Back to today. The Trychon has been formed in the Kings chambers. This is the most sacred place in all of Claennis. Up until today, none of us, The Trychon have been inside. This is serious business. King Halcyone comes into his chambers. The Trychon has all eyes on the King as he explains what is going on and what has to be done. Then, Menelous gets up in front of The Trychon to explain what will be done. He is a very tactical man. He has years of experience in training for this to happen. He’s more excited than anything right now, you can tell. He has so much enthusiasm in each breath. We’re told that The Trychon will be formed tonight, after dark, and we will start our mission, by taking out The Damaged that are hiding throughout the forests of Claennis. And we will work our way up until will find Ator. This will be a battle to the end. Nothing is rewarded without a fight. I’ve lived in this land my entire life, and I will not give it up to The Damaged. I refuse.
The Trychon has been formed, all armor and weapons are equipped. Now all we have to do is split up. Groups of two, always. Except for Menelaos, he goes alone, no matter what. He is the strongest, he is the true warrior. We won’t see him again until the final confrontation with Ator. We all have everything we need, maps of the land, food and supplies, weapons and other necessities of a fighter.
I am paired with the one and only Phoenix. Myself, I’m Khaos. Phoenix is next in line as the most elite warrior of The Trychon. If anything were to happen to Menelaos, Phoenix would take charge of The Trychon. And, if you haven’t yet guessed, I, would happen to be third in line for command of The Trychon. So, if gods forbid anything were to happen to Menelaos and Phoenix in this coming challenge. I would be in complete control of The Trychon. What a thought.
As we all break apart into our groups, Phoenix and I venture to the east, which generally is the largest piece of Claennis. We run into a few of The Damaged, their versions of demons and creatures, we slay them easily. As we deepen into the forest, things get a bit more intense. More battles, some wounds, but not much, actually, none to me. Five evenings later, we encountered a beast of The Damaged. After an epic battle, I managed to defeat the Beast, but, there was one slight mishap. Phoenix, well, I lost him. Not literally, but, he passed. This means I’m alone.
For the coming days, I fought all the beasts, demons and everything else The Damaged could challenge me with. I came out on top of all the battles. Finally, I ran into a few members of The Trychon. They told me the news. Menelaos had been defeated by the one man under Ator, Raiden. They told me that all the fate of my land had rested upon my shoulders. I had to defeat not only Raiden, but, ultimately, Ator. I am as nervous as could be, but, Khaos is not my name just because.
As I ventured on through the forest to find where Raidens hide out was, I thought of how nervous I was and how I could not screw this up at all. The fate of my people rested upon my shoulders. I found it, the temple where Raiden was to be find, all I had to do was go in and find him, I surely doubt he was expecting this. There were a few creatures lurking around, but nothing major. As I finally came to where Raiden would be, I came to the realization that me defeating him was simple, he only has Ator, he had no Damaged left to help protect him. After a great battle, I prevailed.
I knew Ator would be in his castle upon Mt. Valcun. At last though, I reassured myself that this was what had to be done. I went in and bombarded The Damaged and after a heroic encounter throughout the castle, I was there. I was where I needed to be, standing face to face, eye to eye with him. The man that projects the greatest evil upon all the people of this world, and I am here looking him in the eye. He came for me immediately, I shot back with a viscous blow from my sword. After a few of these with Ator. I finally got him in the heart, and I watched him die. I saved this world, this land, these people. I am finally rewarded with what I have always wanted. My own alliance against the commoners, The Trychon.

Natalie Jane O'Bryan.

and.

Chelsey Riley Gorczyca.

are my best friends.
absolutely.

for a million reasons.

and the number one reason.

if they have a problem. they say it to me.
they don't make up lies and talk shit to other people.

so. this is why I love them.

just throwing that out there.



and.
p.s
I do not really hate my life.
yeah. I totally hate my life.
I have the best friends a person could ask for.
I have a job.
I talk to boys.
I know what I want.
WOW.

I got a new blackberry curve last night! Its pink and I absoluely love it. Its basically the best thing I've ever had. Its probs the most convinient thing I've ever owned! I love it. And in other news. I don't even need to get an ipod now! This is way better! Ah well.

I am a free spirit.

I am a writer.

I am a thinker.

I'm very outgoing.

I'm ridiculously shy.

I've writen more songs that people have written anything in their entire lives.

I listen to rap all the time, I love it,

I listen to screamo like it's nobodys business.

I want to be a Politician.

I love boys with messy hair and cute eyes.

Lil' Wayne is my idol.

I want to learn to play the drums.

I play Guitar Hero on Expert now.

I sing a lot when no one is around.

311 and Sublime are amazing forever.

I have an obssesion with Spiderman.

I want to be a Marine.

I don't wear socks.

Snow should only take place on December 24th and 25th.

I'm always cold.

I hate being sad.

I have an awesome sense of humor.

I can find anything interesting.

I'm a huge video game nerd.

If Link from The Lengend of Zelda was real. I'd marry him. No joke.

I was Link for HOLLAween.

I find proper grammer very attractive.

I really love football.

I've been used too much within the past year.
I just wish that one time in my life.
That I could be with somebody who isn't a whore.
Someone who is interested in things I have to say.
Someone who doesn't care that I'm into goofy things.
Someone who actually likes my friends and doesn't tell me I can't talk to them anymore.
Someone that will make me happy when I'm sad.
Someone that will make me a cute mixtape.
Someone that will tell me everything will be okay.
Someone that will hold me when I'm cold, I don't want your jacket, I'd rather have you.
Someone that will watch ridiculously scary movies with me, even though they hate them.
Someone that will make mistakes and will fix them, not by walking away.
Someone that won't tell me I'm stupid.
Someone that won't break me apart.
Someone that is just a real person who actually wants something more than a fling.
ugh.
this is not me at all. whats going on.

=[. that'd make me so happy though.

"these words are my heart and soul.

ugh.

HOLLAween is coming soon!

I can't waitttttttttt.

And imma be eighteen mad soon. I'm really excited.

natalie. we needa hang out soon. I seriously misssss youuuuu.

what would you say if I asked you not to go?
would you take my hand and never let me go?
Please promise me you won't ever let go.

TAKE THIS BROKEN HEART AND MAKE IT RIGHT.




I don't even know where to begin. seriously.

I miss you more than you could even imagine.
I say I hate you because I hate not having you around. I hate not talking to you. You know it too. and I know you feel the same way. I miss you so much. And, When I can't talk to you, and I can't be the same way I was with you two montyhs ago. do you know how it kills me inside, to see you and know that it's over. and not gone.
I'm so torn apart from the inside out right now.
I just want to be around you.
you seriously make me smile so much.
like, you saw that yesterday, you know it.
I enjoy everything about you.

I will never recover from this. I will never believe in this again. I will never go back to the way I was before this started.

And every step I take I stay in the same place, I can't begin to start again.
WHY CAN'T I JUST BE PERFECT.






You build me up
You knock me down
Provoke a smile
And make me frown
You are the queen of runaround
You know it’s true

You chew me up
And spit me out
Enjoy the taste
I leave in your mouth
You look at me
I look at you
Neither of us know what to do

There may not
Be another way to your heart
So I guess I’d better find a new way in
I shiver when I hear your name
Think about you but it’s not the same
I won’t be satisfied I’m under your skin

Immobilized by the thought of you
Paralyzed by the sight of you
Hypnotized by the words you say
Not true but I believe anyway

So come to bed it’s getting late
There’s no more time for us to waste
Remember how my body tastes
You feel your heart begin to race



and as for the other situation. why did I even bother? seriously.
I have no idea.
I'm sorry I don't act like a complete skank toward everyone and then preech about my pureness.
I'm sorry I don't fit your standards.
I'm sorry that I'm not a freak.

I like you.

you like me.

wtf is the deal.

maybe you don't.

maybe. idkkkkkkkkk.

right now I'm sitting in Carlys dorm with manda and josh.
we gots to go meet up with the buds.
tom. jackie. lisa. matt. cece. phil. ritza. you knowwwwwww.
Oswego is pretty awesome. can't lie. =D.
It's nice outside. like. cool and whatnot!

I don't wanna go homeeeeeeeeeee.
I'm having the worst life outside of this weekend. ever

but.
I'm wicked happy we're talking now.
we need to hang out way soon boy.
and possibly pick this back up.

oops.
you didn't think it happened.
oops. it did.

whos the idiot now?

anyways. haha. I love talking to you everyday. it's fantastic. =D

you're so random. and we talk about actual stuff. and thats cool. ya make me happy.
ughhhh. I hope I get to see you soooon!

The Dark Knight, is like, the best movie, ever.

going to gamers clubbbbbbbbbbbb.

nerdy. I know =]

I like it!

ridiculous.

ugh.

Seriously. anyway.

you make my day, literally every day.
because geniune people are hard to find.
and just knowing that you're there and I can talk to you like, whenever. makes me wicked happy dude.
ugh.
frazzledazzle.
=].
that deal made me smile just now.
as when I talk to youuuuuu. hahah.

ugrhugkghtp
I have psych is a an hour.

gonna finish the dark knight.

text me =].

so. at about 140 this morning.
my week was made.

HAHAHAHHAHA.

are you kidding me. I'm so glad I stopped talking you. you don't even know. you're SUCH an idiot.

seriously though.
please. don't ever contact me ever again. don't even look at me if I unfortunatly see you.

=D and it's so much better now.



and. I wish I wrote this song right now.


I want you to know, that I'm happy for you
I wish nothing but the best for you both
An older version of me
Is she perverted like me
Would she go down on you in a theatre
Does she speak eloquently
And would she have your baby
I'm sure she'd make a really excellent mother

Cause the love that you gave that we made wasn't able
To make it enough for you to be open wide, no
And every time you speak her name
Does she know how you told me you'd hold me
Until you died, till you died
But you're still alive

And I'm here to remind you
Of the mess you left when you went away
It's not fair to deny me
Of the cross I bear that you gave to me
You, you, you oughta know

You seem very well, things look peaceful
I'm not quite as well, I thought you should know
Did you forget about me Mr. Duplicity
I hate to bug you in the middle of dinner
It was a slap in the face how quickly I was replaced
Are you thinking of me when you fuck her

Cause the love that you gave that we made wasn't able
To make it enough for you to be open wide, no
And every time you speak her name
Does she know how you told me you'd hold me
Until you died, til you died
But you're still alive

And I'm here to remind you
Of the mess you left when you went away
It's not fair to deny me
Of the cross I bear that you gave to me
You, you, you oughta know

Cause the joke that you laid on the bed that was me
And I'm not gonna fade
As soon as you close your eyes and you know it
And every time I scratch my nails down someone else's back
I hope you feel it...well can you feel it

And I'm here to remind you
Of the mess you left when you went away
It's not fair to deny me
Of the cross I bear that you gave to me
You, you, you oughta know